Asalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuu , It has been quite long since i've updated my last post. I'm kinda lazy to update, but i'm shoo bored and dont know what the hell to do pluss i'm sad about something && i kinda have some stupid issues with two of my beloved bestfriend, so i had to keep my problem all to myself. Hmm, quite depressing. It all started one day when i was online-ing at Macdonald's. I'm actually finishing my assignment for sejarah, godamnn banyakk. Tension tk dpt cari bahan so online sekejap, kebetulan tadi adalah snapping sikit so upload lah , then bosannnn melanda, so i took the link, copy it and i tgk IM list siapa online, so there's one guy named Azim , i tegur him paste-ing it and sent to him. So yeah he started asking me questions, and i kinda excited to know him, believe me we didnt chat like we first met. Its like we've known each other for a long time. he's kind, peramah , gilaa at the same time. Lol last-2 chat dah dapat nombor pulakk. Pluss masa tu single aite ? So what ? Mingle lah kann. Then bila dia off , baru i went to see his photos and stuffs. He's CUTE. Tanggapan pertama, The second most frustrating thing is that HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. I gave up. haha But then still kitorg gurau senda, the next day we hanged on the phone for like 5 hours. Seriously ? He is soooo damn sweet and voice dia comel gilababi. Everything about him is so comell and makes me wanna jump everytime chatting and texting and calling. So after 4 days knewing him , i started to like him. Duhh ! Guess what , he had the same feeling too. I was like so happy for 2 weeks. Sumpah lupa dunia terus yang dia ada girlfriend. Lol so one day i nak gy sunway , i asked him nak ikut tak, coz dy tak habis-2 nak jumpa. So yeah , we did meetup. Sampai-2 jumpa dia kat entrance. Ya Allah, nak tahu tak ? DIA HANDSOME LAH SIALL . haha itu yang aku ckp dlm hati bila first time nampak. So we went for a movie and then lepak-2. Lepas tuu we talk about so many stuffs. I was madly inlove with him. Bila dia nak balik tuu , serious susah nak watch him go. It's because i'm the kind of girl yang susah keluar, so takut tk dpt jumpa lagi. Hmm tapi terpaksa. Hee lepas balik sunway , malam tuu Onthephone lagii ,we laughed, fight, manje-2 semua lahh. Then the 2nd meetup was on HIS BIRTHDAY. I was glad that he told me it was the best birthday ever. Aww ~ And then we started meeting every week. Dalam seminggu mesti jumpa 3 or 2 kali. I've never did anything like that before. Dgn dia jea. So one day he told me that he would ask me to be his girlfriend IF he breaks up with his gf. So yeah it did happen, he did BROKE UP. And nak kata happy tkdelah happy , nak kata sedih pun tk. So yeah i gave him some time. I tak berharap sgt untuk jadi his gf or what. But the way dia janji, he was so sure. And the stupid me BELIEVED him. He keeps on giving stupid alsan semua. And makin hari makin susah nak percaya kan dia. I was so hurt. But nobody knows. I keep on faking a smile. But dia marah sgt-2 bila i ckp or chat dgn lelaki lain, he takes care of me so well. The most confusing and the sad part is that I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT'S HIS WAITING FOR :'( I got tired of waiting for people. I'm a girl with a heart too. Hmm So the other day i saw his ex started to manja-2 with him balik and i was so pissed of. My trust dkt dia serious mengurang. Then kite gaduh for 4 days i guess. It's like everytime text mesti gaduh. And then if he calls or what gernty ada je benda yg dia nak marah or buat aku marah. I'm like super sad bila ingat balik benda-2 lamaa and benda-2 sekarang. Sumpah lain gilaa. Skrg mana ada dah nak onthephone 24 jam, manade dah gelak-2 or talk about fun stuffs. Hari-2 gaduh. Semalam baru okay , dia texted he said he miss the word yg i selalu ckp , and i was like hmm . I tak ready nak maafkan you i'm sorry. I dont know why but i'm still mad and so sakit hati. Dulu kalau dia pujuk perghh kejap jea dah cair. Now he'll only gv one misscall, one text that's all. Every night i will be crying because of him. I'm tired of being used. I love him so much. Then tiba-2 semalam dia tanya, aku ada org lain ke ? Jujur je. I was like WHATTA ? :O hello , kauu yangg banyak gilaa clien, and then tak habis-2 gaduh dgn aku , pergi terawih pun nak dgn betina manatahh. Lepas tuu nak tanya aku cengituww. Agak-2 ahh sikit. Aku tk macam tuu doe. Kalau aku ada org lainn ah kan , mesti tk sakit hati enn , gerenty aku dah belah dgn dia and campak je kauu . Tapi takk pasal aku sayang kauu , aku still ada bila KAU PERLUKAN AKU. Sebab sayangg , ingat tuu. Kau ingat sikit dulu siapa yang susah payah habiskan duuit semua untuk dtg jumpa kau , ada bila kau sedih , selalu kesah pasal kauu semua. Aku taauu yang ada, bukan betina-2 yang kau tgh chat text or call sekarang. Kau duduk jauhh , so kau boleh bt apa je kau nak kann ? Hari-2 keluar semua tah apa kau buat, aku pikir pasal kau , lagi rasa macam nak pecah kepala akuu. Hmm Semua yang kau cakap dulu kau tk pernah buat, smpai sekarang kau buat aku tunggu. Aku ni punn bodoh , degil jugak nak tunggu enn ? Hmmm sebab sayangg wehh. Sabar je akuu. Aku tak faham doe dgn kauu :'/ Aku sayang kau Azim. Aku tkde org lain , apa yang aku ada dgn kauu , berbeza gilaaaa dgn yang lain. Aku penat lah sayang, penat sgt-2 dah tak larat nii. Aku harap kau faham perasaan aku. Ini janji aku dekat kau , Aku dah banyak bersabar dgn kau , semalam aku maafkan kau . Tapi ingat ni lepas ni kalau kau buat aku sakit lagi , sumpah aku cakap aku akn belah dari hidup kauu macam tuu je and takkan pandang balik dah. Aku sayang kauu tapi aku pun ada perasaan jugakk . Hmm Aku rinduuu sgt-2 time-2 duluu. Thankssbb pernah buat aku rasa happy gilaaaaa :']
Iloveyouuu Biyy <3
